Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Bit of a mid-life crisis

I’m not sure at what age “mid-life” begins, but I’m thinking it doesn’t really matter. I think I am having a crisis regardless of what part of my life I might be in (beginning, middle, or Heaven forbid, the end).

I am turning 40 this year- YUCK. Getting older never really bothered me, and most of my friends are past this milestone, so I am not sure why this year, this particular birthday is bothering me (note, it’s not until July, so why its an issue already, I’m not sure about that either). My husband says we won’t have a “40 years old party” but a “39 again” party. Wtf is the difference! Anyway….

I went to THAT doctor a couple weeks ago, and she told me I was fine, but that this little issue I’ve got going on is hormonal- wow- really? I’m only 39 (again!).

My youngest,
Bud, just got his learners’ permit to drive a freaking car…. A real car, not a go-cart, not a golf-cart, a real life honest to goodness 4000 pound vehicle. (Did I mention I am turning 40- Lord help my heart). He’s a good driver as far as inexperience goes, but for heavens sake, it’s just one more thing to mark off my parental list of things to accomplish. Cheerleader Girl got her license last June, and for some reason that didn’t affect me like this one has… maybe because I knew then, I still had one more…. Well so much for one more. I still remember him as a little boy still to small to see over the steering wheel of the riding lawn mower while riding on Papa's lap!

And then, my oldest, Cheerleader Girl, is looking at colleges. I think THAT is really what is bringing all of this to a head. She is a junior this year, but we are already planning for classes in her senior year, registering for SAT’s, scheduling college visits, and applying for scholarships. We are really close, so I have been very involved in the process, which will make her going away that much harder : (

I know, I know, I should probably be thankful that I have a healthy family, I am healthy, albeit, hormonal, I have a job, my husband still has a job, and we can still pay our bills. And I am very, very thankful, but and for God’s sake, I just want time to STOP moving, just for a little while.…. Except that I would very much like for 5 o’clock to get here first ;)

5 comments:

Noe Noe Girl...A Queen of all Trades. said...

Believe me babe when I say it does not stop! So stop whining and crying...go by the store get a 12 pack,come on over and we can sit and talk about what its like to be 50!
Its the hormones raising their ugly little heads!

Big Hair Envy said...

"...most of my friends are past this milestone..."

Thanks. Love you too.

Busy Bee Suz said...

I was actually thinking about the "time standing still" part today...I need it to stop, or at least slllloooooowww down. :)
I did have issues w/ my 40th bday....I was stressed about it for about a year....all the way up to my big day. Then you know what? It did not bother me one bit...once it was here, I was like: "oh, no biggie."
The baby having milestones...that might be what is irking you....I will be in the same boat with you soon.
take care,suz

The Incredible Woody said...

I had issues when I turned 39. I hit panic mode thinking OMG, my life is so not where I had pictured and I've only got one more year to fix it! Crazy?!?

BTW - on my 40th birthday, I had an eye appointment. The doctor finished his exam and said "Welcome to middle age. You need bifocals!!" Thanks doc!

Keeper Of All Things said...

I don't have birthdays I have anniversaries of my 29th bday!!!